Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Its been ROUGH!

The last couple of days have been ROUGH!  I have been SO emotional and feeling overwhelmed with everything!  Kadynce is getting a few teeth in at the same time so she has been cranky and not helping.  LOL 

I have not been feeling too well the last few days and with Kadynce being vranky it only makes me feel worse. 

Sometimes I feel like I could bitch out a few people.....All I ever hear is how everything will be okay and how I should just be happy that I have a Husband that supports me.  Dont get me wrong, I am SO glad that my Husband supports me and our family.  I am glad that he supports all of my choices and decisions as well.  BUT....being away from him is NOT as easy as some people think it is!  Like I have said MANY times before...until you are in MY shoes, you will NEVER know how I feel or what I am going through!!!  Until then, you can tell me your opinions all you want....even though I probably wont listen!  I will feel how I want and when I want!  The only person that knows EXACTLY what I am going through is my Husband....and he doesnt get the full effect but close enough to it!  He has been my rock through all of this and will continue to be. 

I hate how I thought I could depend on a few people but I dont think I can.  I feel pretty alone and by myself a lot of the time.  I guess that is what I get for moving back here.  Again....all I hear is that it would be worse if I were in Japan......then I would be by myself with both kids and nobody to help.  Sometimes, I feel like that is what I have here in Iowa so it would be no different.  Im hoping that after Bradyn is born, time will go fast and my Husband will be back to get us to go back to Japan. 

On a GOOD note....I get to see my Husband in less than a week!  I am SO excited!  I am NOT looking foward to the 11 hour drive but it will be TOTALLY worth it!  I just want to be in his arms.....even though it is for only 4 days!

Bill Denney-Im SO excited to see you and be in your arms!  I cannot wait until I get to see you in LESS than a week!  You are my rock and my EVERYTHING!  Im so glad that you are by my side with all of my choices and you almost always seem to make me in a better mood with your words!  I love you SO much!

<3  143 BLTS  <3

Friday, February 18, 2011

SO excited!!

I am SO excited!  I found out that I get to see my Husband in a week and a half!!!!! I cant wait!  It is going to be a LONG drive to Oklahoma but SOOOO worth it!  I just want to be in his arms again!  And I want Kadynce to have time with her Daddy.  I know that she misses him just as much as I do! 

Bradyn has been kicking SO much.....!!!  I love when he makes my heart melt!  Ill love it even more when his Daddy can feel him too! 

I FINALLY got to talk on the phone with Bill today!  I miss hearing his voice.  I always know that he will be here for me no matter what.  Im SO lucky to have him as my Husband!  <3

Monday, February 7, 2011

My King and My Prince!

Today I had an ultrasound to see Bradyn!  He is SOO cute!  I LOVE IT!  He has his Daddys nose....just like Kadynce!  It makes me miss Bill even more and wishing that Bill could be here to be at the Dr appointments with me.  I miss my King!!!  He is my EVERYTHING!  My Mom has been going with me to all of my appointments so that keeps my mind off of Bill not being there.  Im SO glad that I have the support that I do from my Mom and my Grandma!  They mean SO much to me and are definitely helping me get through all of this without my Husband!

Bradyn is almost 3 pounds and looks GREAT!  He is still a BOY!  LOL  The Dr definitely made that clear....!!  :)  Bradyn was all open today and not being shy!  Again.....he must take after his Daddy!  Just kidding!  He has LOTS of hair already too!  I cant wait until he is in my arms.....but I can wait until he gets bigger and gains more weight! 

To Mr Denney-We love you VERY much and cant wait until we get to see you again!  Thank you for giving me my and them are my WHOLE world!  I am SO happy to call you my Husband and for our kids to call you Daddy...(well, Da Da)!!  I love you with all of my heart and MORE and you make me SO happy!  143 BLTS!