Just checkin' in... :)

I havent written on here for a few days so I thought I would give some updates.  Bill is doing great....so he says!!  He is working REALLY long hours in the HORRIBLE heat!  I feel so bad for him!  Im hoping that time is going just as fast for him as it is me!  I cant believe that Bradyn is almost a month old already!!  Where has the time went?!? 

Bradyn is doing very well even after the tests that we had to go through.  It turns out that surgery or further tests are not necessary.  Thank gosh!  I wouldnt be able to handle any of that without Bill here!

Kadynce is doing great and growing like a weed!  She is definitely my lil' princess.....but has been VERY moody lately!  She misses her Daddy....just like I do!  We still have Daddy Time and she LOVES that!  She listens to his books and looks at his pictures.  It melts my heart to see her get so excited to see him! 

Im HOPING that we will get to webcam with Bill soon!  I miss his face!  I love him VERY much and cant wait to be in his arms again.  :) 

Phone Call #1

Today I got my 1st phone call from Bill!!!!!  It was 15 minutes of PURE GREATNESS!!!  I was not expecting it at all.....I thought that I would get an email first!  I was soooo happy to hear his voice.  I think I fell in love all over again!  Its nice to know that he is doing well.  Hes in a tent (for now) but it has air conditioning (thank gosh because he said its SO hot over there right now) and it has power outlets!  So, I guess that is better then nothing!!  He said that the food is not too bad but it depends on which chow hall he goes to.

Im getting ready to send him his first box.....as soon as I get his address!  Im excited!!!  Ive gotten LOTS of ideas from friends on what they have sent their Husbands when they were deployed!  :)  

Hopefully Bill will get the rest of the way settled in soon and on a routine!  I keep telling myseld that time is already going fast so it can only be a sign that we will be together again in no time!!  <3 

As time narrows down....

As time narrows down to final good-byes on the phone, its getting harder.  Im SO not ready for it!  I can only HOPE that time goes fast and this is all over in a blink of an eye!  I dont think that I have wanted Christmas to come any sooner!  The last couple of days I have been able to talk to Bill on the phone quite a few times, and we got to webcam a few times!  It melts my heart when Kadynce gets to see him and gets SOOO excited!  All she could do was wave and blow kisses!  I know that she misses her Daddy!  :)  

On a positive note.....Prince Bradyn has made his appearance!!!!!  We were scheduled to induce on the 20th but he decided that when the clock struck midnight on the 17th he wanted to come!  He was born at 10:01am on the 17th!  He was 6 pounds and 14 ounces and measured 20 1/4 inches long!!!  His Daddy even got to see him be born on the webcam!  It was not the same as him being in the room with us but it meant the WORLD to me that he could atleast see it!  We got to webcam for a couple hours after he was born so Daddy could see his lil' prince!  My babies are my world! 

I could not be any happier with my life!  I have the perfect kids and the PERFECT Husband!!!  We will be together again and be the happy family that we should be!  Until then, it is me being Mommy and Daddy!!!  I know that I cannot fill their Daddys shoes but they will atleast know who he is.  They will get to see him (in the pictures and slideshows that I made) and will get to hear his voice (with the books he recorded for them)!  Kadynce LOVES having Daddy time so that is a MUST while he is gone!  We have time set aside just to think about and "see" Daddy! 

It breaks my heart that he cant be here and hold his little boy but knowing what my Husband is doing not only for our family but for our couuntry, makes me SOO proud!  I could not be more proud of my Husband for making the sacrifices that he is!

Bill-You are my world and my soul mate!  PLEASE come back home to us safe!  We love you and need you!  <3  143 BLTS  <3

Sometimes you just HAVE to let go.....

2 days ago I had to do the hardest thing I have EVER done.  I had to take my Husband to the Airport and say good-bye to him.  We had the BEST 2 weeks together.  We spent every minute together.  On the way to the Airport I just knew that I was going to break down in the Airport when he had to walk away from us.  Kadynce didnt quite understand what was going on (thank gosh)!  She just sat in her stroller as we walked in to get Bill checked in for his flight.  Thats when my tears started.  We walked over to the security check point and decided that we would just say our good-byes then instead of waiting until he had to board the plane.  I TOTALLY LOST IT!!!  All I could do was hold him in my arms and I definitely didnt want to let go.  As I stand there bawling my eyes out and have everyone looking at us, Bill says his good-byes to Kadynce.  That made me cry more.  She was so use to her Daddy being around and now he had to walk away from her.  Bill hugged me and kissed me one last time.  I didnt want to let him go......but I knew I had to!!!  So, Kadynce and I stand there and watch him go through security.  Kadynce starts to wave at her Daddy and then starts to cry because she dont understand why hes not turing around and coming back or waving back to her.  We stood there for about 5 more minutes as I just bawled my eyes out.  Once we got to the car in the parking lot, all I could do was sit there and cry.  I just could not tell myself to leave.  I knew that my whole world was sitting in that Airport and was leaving soon.  I felt like my world was ending.  My heart was breaking but I had to pull myself together so Kadynce didnt see my tears.  As I pulled out of the parking lot, all I could do was cry.  I cried for 20 minutes after I left the Airport.  It had to be the HARDEST day in my life.  It was a difficult afternoon and evening.  I had to hide my tears until Kadynce went to bed.  I dont want her to see her Mommy cry.  I dont want her to know how much I hurt because I am not with her Daddy.  She has enough hurt of her own.  She knows who her Daddy is.....and knows now that he is not here with us.  It has been hard for me to hear her call his name.  We look at his pictures every day....many times a day!  Every time I am on the phone with someone she thinks that it is him.  I know that in 9 months we will be together again......but it is going to be a LONG 9 months.  :'(

Yesterday I became 37 weeks.  It has been a rough 3 weeks.  I have had LOTS of contractions that are very regular and I am still dilated to 4 cm.  We were hoping that Bill would be able to see Bradyn be born while he was here on leave but that didnt happen.  So, we are sticking with our plan and going to Skype it.  As of now, if Bradyn is not born before my appointment next week then we are going to schedule an induction for the 20th of April.  So no matter what in 2 weeks my baby boy will be here!  I CANT WAIT!!! 

I love my family SO VERY MUCH and cant wait until we are together again!!!  <3

1 Year Later.....

1 year ago today I brought my Princess in to the world!!  She is the BEST that I could have asked for!  She is my whole world!  I waited FOREVER for her to come.  I went through 21 1/2 hours of labor before she arrived!  Im just glad that I only pushed for 30 minutes! 

Now....a year later, I am about to go through it again!  I am currently 4 cm and 70% effaced.  Im hoping that Bradyn comes SOON because I am MISERABLE!  My contractions are 1-4 minutes apart.  I just need them to get a little stronger so I can dilate more!  Im not too sure how much longer I can handle this pain without some meds but the Nurses and Drs at the Birth Center seem to think that all women in labor are wonder women and can handle all of the pain!  Well....news to them....Im NOT wonder woman!  I HATE PAIN!!!! 

AHHHH-MAZING!!!!

Bill has been back here in Iowa for 5 days so far and it has been AHH-MAZING!!  I love having him with us!  We have gotten A LOT accomplished since he has been here.  Kadynce is turning 1 next week so we are having her party tomorrow!  Im SOO excited!  I cannot believe that she is going to be 1 already!  Time has went SOO fast!!!!!!

We had a Dr appointment Tuesday and found out that I am starting to dilate!  So far I am at 1 1/2 cm!  :)  So, anytime Bradyn is ready, he will be here!  We go back to the Dr next week so hopefully I am more dilated and Bradyn will make his entrance while his Daddy is here.  That would be SOO nice!  ;)

When I was 33 Weeks pregnant with Bradyn, we did the 3D pictures!  He looks JUST like Kadynce did in her 3D pictures that we had done with her.  That means that he will look like his Daddy too!  :)  :)
Other than planning Kadynce's Birthday Party and getting things done for Bradyn, we have been relaxing and spending all of our time together as a family!!!!  I will be SOOOOOO heart-broken when Bill has to leave again but he has to!  :(


I love my Husband and all of my Babies!!!!!!!! 

Emotions, Emotions, Emotions!!!

These past 5 days have been AMAZING!  I have been with my Husband and it has never felt so good to be close to him!  We have had such a great time....and I dont want it to end!  All good things come to an end eventually though!  :(  He will be home with me in Iowa in a few weeks so I have something to look forward to.  :)  We have gotten a lot accomplished this week so that has been good.  I am hoping that I dont cry tomorrow when I take him to the Airport....Im sure I will though!  I have a 12 hour drive after that though so I cant wear myself out!  LOL

Bill has gotten to spend a lot of time with Kadynce and also be able to feel and see Bradyn play (maybe with his weiner like I said before!!  HAHA)

I am still not sure how I got SO lucky to have met this man!  He is my rock....my everything!  I cannot thank God enough to have brought this AMAZING man in to my life that night!  I am just as in love with him now than I was when we met and got married!  My love for him grows everyday.  It will be SO hard when he has to deploy in less than 2 months but I know that we can make it through it!  Bill.....I love you SO much and cant wait to be with you in a few weeks!  <3  143 BLTS  <3