As time narrows down to final good-byes on the phone, its getting harder. Im SO not ready for it! I can only HOPE that time goes fast and this is all over in a blink of an eye! I dont think that I have wanted Christmas to come any sooner! The last couple of days I have been able to talk to Bill on the phone quite a few times, and we got to webcam a few times! It melts my heart when Kadynce gets to see him and gets SOOO excited! All she could do was wave and blow kisses! I know that she misses her Daddy! :)
On a positive note.....Prince Bradyn has made his appearance!!!!! We were scheduled to induce on the 20th but he decided that when the clock struck midnight on the 17th he wanted to come! He was born at 10:01am on the 17th! He was 6 pounds and 14 ounces and measured 20 1/4 inches long!!! His Daddy even got to see him be born on the webcam! It was not the same as him being in the room with us but it meant the WORLD to me that he could atleast see it! We got to webcam for a couple hours after he was born so Daddy could see his lil' prince! My babies are my world!
I could not be any happier with my life! I have the perfect kids and the PERFECT Husband!!! We will be together again and be the happy family that we should be! Until then, it is me being Mommy and Daddy!!! I know that I cannot fill their Daddys shoes but they will atleast know who he is. They will get to see him (in the pictures and slideshows that I made) and will get to hear his voice (with the books he recorded for them)! Kadynce LOVES having Daddy time so that is a MUST while he is gone! We have time set aside just to think about and "see" Daddy!
It breaks my heart that he cant be here and hold his little boy but knowing what my Husband is doing not only for our family but for our couuntry, makes me SOO proud! I could not be more proud of my Husband for making the sacrifices that he is!
Bill-You are my world and my soul mate! PLEASE come back home to us safe! We love you and need you! <3 143 BLTS <3
2 days ago I had to do the hardest thing I have EVER done. I had to take my Husband to the Airport and say good-bye to him. We had the BEST 2 weeks together. We spent every minute together. On the way to the Airport I just knew that I was going to break down in the Airport when he had to walk away from us. Kadynce didnt quite understand what was going on (thank gosh)! She just sat in her stroller as we walked in to get Bill checked in for his flight. Thats when my tears started. We walked over to the security check point and decided that we would just say our good-byes then instead of waiting until he had to board the plane. I TOTALLY LOST IT!!! All I could do was hold him in my arms and I definitely didnt want to let go. As I stand there bawling my eyes out and have everyone looking at us, Bill says his good-byes to Kadynce. That made me cry more. She was so use to her Daddy being around and now he had to walk away from her. Bill hugged me and kissed me one last time. I didnt want to let him go......but I knew I had to!!! So, Kadynce and I stand there and watch him go through security. Kadynce starts to wave at her Daddy and then starts to cry because she dont understand why hes not turing around and coming back or waving back to her. We stood there for about 5 more minutes as I just bawled my eyes out. Once we got to the car in the parking lot, all I could do was sit there and cry. I just could not tell myself to leave. I knew that my whole world was sitting in that Airport and was leaving soon. I felt like my world was ending. My heart was breaking but I had to pull myself together so Kadynce didnt see my tears. As I pulled out of the parking lot, all I could do was cry. I cried for 20 minutes after I left the Airport. It had to be the HARDEST day in my life. It was a difficult afternoon and evening. I had to hide my tears until Kadynce went to bed. I dont want her to see her Mommy cry. I dont want her to know how much I hurt because I am not with her Daddy. She has enough hurt of her own. She knows who her Daddy is.....and knows now that he is not here with us. It has been hard for me to hear her call his name. We look at his pictures every day....many times a day! Every time I am on the phone with someone she thinks that it is him. I know that in 9 months we will be together again......but it is going to be a LONG 9 months. :'(
Yesterday I became 37 weeks. It has been a rough 3 weeks. I have had LOTS of contractions that are very regular and I am still dilated to 4 cm. We were hoping that Bill would be able to see Bradyn be born while he was here on leave but that didnt happen. So, we are sticking with our plan and going to Skype it. As of now, if Bradyn is not born before my appointment next week then we are going to schedule an induction for the 20th of April. So no matter what in 2 weeks my baby boy will be here! I CANT WAIT!!!
I love my family SO VERY MUCH and cant wait until we are together again!!! <3
1 year ago today I brought my Princess in to the world!! She is the BEST that I could have asked for! She is my whole world! I waited FOREVER for her to come. I went through 21 1/2 hours of labor before she arrived! Im just glad that I only pushed for 30 minutes!
Now....a year later, I am about to go through it again! I am currently 4 cm and 70% effaced. Im hoping that Bradyn comes SOON because I am MISERABLE! My contractions are 1-4 minutes apart. I just need them to get a little stronger so I can dilate more! Im not too sure how much longer I can handle this pain without some meds but the Nurses and Drs at the Birth Center seem to think that all women in labor are wonder women and can handle all of the pain! Well....news to them....Im NOT wonder woman! I HATE PAIN!!!!
Bill has been back here in Iowa for 5 days so far and it has been AHH-MAZING!! I love having him with us! We have gotten A LOT accomplished since he has been here. Kadynce is turning 1 next week so we are having her party tomorrow! Im SOO excited! I cannot believe that she is going to be 1 already! Time has went SOO fast!!!!!!
We had a Dr appointment Tuesday and found out that I am starting to dilate! So far I am at 1 1/2 cm! :) So, anytime Bradyn is ready, he will be here! We go back to the Dr next week so hopefully I am more dilated and Bradyn will make his entrance while his Daddy is here. That would be SOO nice! ;)
When I was 33 Weeks pregnant with Bradyn, we did the 3D pictures! He looks JUST like Kadynce did in her 3D pictures that we had done with her. That means that he will look like his Daddy too! :) :)
Other than planning Kadynce's Birthday Party and getting things done for Bradyn, we have been relaxing and spending all of our time together as a family!!!! I will be SOOOOOO heart-broken when Bill has to leave again but he has to! :(
I love my Husband and all of my Babies!!!!!!!!
These past 5 days have been AMAZING! I have been with my Husband and it has never felt so good to be close to him! We have had such a great time....and I dont want it to end! All good things come to an end eventually though! :( He will be home with me in Iowa in a few weeks so I have something to look forward to. :) We have gotten a lot accomplished this week so that has been good. I am hoping that I dont cry tomorrow when I take him to the Airport....Im sure I will though! I have a 12 hour drive after that though so I cant wear myself out! LOL
Bill has gotten to spend a lot of time with Kadynce and also be able to feel and see Bradyn play (maybe with his weiner like I said before!! HAHA)
I am still not sure how I got SO lucky to have met this man! He is my rock....my everything! I cannot thank God enough to have brought this AMAZING man in to my life that night! I am just as in love with him now than I was when we met and got married! My love for him grows everyday. It will be SO hard when he has to deploy in less than 2 months but I know that we can make it through it! Bill.....I love you SO much and cant wait to be with you in a few weeks! <3 143 BLTS <3
The last couple of days have been ROUGH! I have been SO emotional and feeling overwhelmed with everything! Kadynce is getting a few teeth in at the same time so she has been cranky and not helping. LOL
I have not been feeling too well the last few days and with Kadynce being vranky it only makes me feel worse.
Sometimes I feel like I could bitch out a few people.....All I ever hear is how everything will be okay and how I should just be happy that I have a Husband that supports me. Dont get me wrong, I am SO glad that my Husband supports me and our family. I am glad that he supports all of my choices and decisions as well. BUT....being away from him is NOT as easy as some people think it is! Like I have said MANY times before...until you are in MY shoes, you will NEVER know how I feel or what I am going through!!! Until then, you can tell me your opinions all you want....even though I probably wont listen! I will feel how I want and when I want! The only person that knows EXACTLY what I am going through is my Husband....and he doesnt get the full effect but close enough to it! He has been my rock through all of this and will continue to be.
I hate how I thought I could depend on a few people but I dont think I can. I feel pretty alone and by myself a lot of the time. I guess that is what I get for moving back here. Again....all I hear is that it would be worse if I were in Japan......then I would be by myself with both kids and nobody to help. Sometimes, I feel like that is what I have here in Iowa so it would be no different. Im hoping that after Bradyn is born, time will go fast and my Husband will be back to get us to go back to Japan.
On a GOOD note....I get to see my Husband in less than a week! I am SO excited! I am NOT looking foward to the 11 hour drive but it will be TOTALLY worth it! I just want to be in his arms.....even though it is for only 4 days!
Bill Denney-Im SO excited to see you and be in your arms! I cannot wait until I get to see you in LESS than a week! You are my rock and my EVERYTHING! Im so glad that you are by my side with all of my choices and you almost always seem to make me in a better mood with your words! I love you SO much!
<3 143 BLTS <3
I am SO excited! I found out that I get to see my Husband in a week and a half!!!!! I cant wait! It is going to be a LONG drive to Oklahoma but SOOOO worth it! I just want to be in his arms again! And I want Kadynce to have time with her Daddy. I know that she misses him just as much as I do!
Bradyn has been kicking SO much.....!!! I love when he moves....it makes my heart melt! Ill love it even more when his Daddy can feel him too!
I FINALLY got to talk on the phone with Bill today! I miss hearing his voice. I always know that he will be here for me no matter what. Im SO lucky to have him as my Husband! <3
